Merry Christmas

The holiday turned into a special day. I spent the day lounging around with my boyfriend... slept in since we had no children needing attention... ate breakfast, watched a movie ("Love Actually") and all around had a wonderful day. Lots of much needed rest, relaxation and quality time:)

I did miss my baby girl like crazy as it is the first Christmas that I have not had her with me. The pics are all from last Sunday at my mom's house. I also missed my sister and my mom (most holidays have been spent with one or another of them). But it is okay.

Countdown to Christmas

Well, I am nearly ready for Christmas. That is to say that I am shopped out and there are many presents under the tree from mommy this year. They are there early as we are celebrating the holiday tomorrow. Katelyn is way excited. But, she knows that Santa will be coming to daddy's house this year. It will be my first Christmas without her with me. I am a little sad about it, but trying to keep perspective. And, I will be spending the holiday with Justin and not alone. We will actually spend a few hours with his sons before they go back to their mom's house.



I have a few things left to get, but the lines were getting a bit ridiculous today. I actually had to get in a line at Victoria's secret so that the people who work there could then put me in another line. And, when I went to pick up earrings at the jeweler (which they called my mom to let her know they were ready and to come get them), I had to stand in line and then they took my name and I had to wait again until they called me to get back in line to get the earrings. What??? It was absurd. Finally, the best was when it took me nearly an hour (seriously took 45 minutes) to turn out of the mall, make another right turn and get one block past the mall. I realize that it is Christmas... but come on, people... learn how to drive!



I did get to briefly talk to my friend Angi -- three of her four children have caught the chicken pox. Thankfully two of them are on the mend. Hopefully the baby will feel better soon.



When I got home we made some cut out cookies. I will leave you with a picture of Katelyn helping:

L-O-V-E

As, I have (again) neglected my poor blog for some time (winter is crazy for a pediatrician), I need to catch up. So, my "mystery guy" is out in the open. His (soon to be ex) wife and my ex-husband are aware of our relationship. And, a few weeks ago I met his sons and they met my daughter. His oldest, Luke, is very sweet and seems to love Katelyn. His little one, Will, is a little more standoffish. I think he is mostly a little jealous of Katelyn... he is the baby and not used to anyone smaller getting attention. I can't get a read on how he feels about me. I am aware that I need to take it very slow with him and let him warm up to the idea. I am sure that it is in part the age and the fact that he was likely not as aware as Luke of the problems between his parents and at that age there is always a fantasy of one's parents reuniting. I, obviously, would be a roadblock to that happening. In theory I knew this... but in reality, it is a little difficult. But I hope that one day he sees the love that I share with his daddy and he lets me in a little.

And, yes... I said it. I am head over heels in love with this guy. True, we met a short time ago... but, I have not felt this way in a very long time. In fact, I thought that I had missed my opportunity to be with my soul mate. I hoped and believed that you could have more than one in a lifetime, but wondered if I would ever find it again. Well, I truly believe that I have. And, just as so many people have said, I found it when I wasn't really looking for it. I was online thinking that I would meet some people in this new town, go out to dinners and get to know the city... but on my first date after boards I just knew that it was so much more. It is scary and exciting all at the same time. I know that there will be many ups and downs... but I believe that my "happily ever after" starts today. And I can't stop smiling about it!