Wednesday, June 30, 2010

A New Chapter

I can't believe that nearly an entire year has come and went w/o a single post on my blog. Well, I will try to do better (at least once a week:) A summary of my year would be... struggled to keep the man I loved and lost - dumped for another woman 4 days before I was due to be induced... had a beautiful baby girl, Isabella Ann on October 2, 2009 weighing it at 7lb 4oz and 19 3/4 in long... moved to MI... quit my job in Columbus... living on savings... no child support for baby girl... went on interviews... reconnected with an old friend and fell in love... moved to Lima... started a new job with people that I really enjoy working with... still struggle much of the time to "do it all"... took a vacation to CA that was not what it should have been... relationship up and down... boyfriend left for active duty in the coast guard due to oil spill... never to be heard from... regrouping and prepared for whatever... Isabella nearly 9 mos old... baptised last weekend... wishing she would sleep all night like she used to... has seen her "daddy" for the equivalent of 2 days in her entire life... still waiting for his decision on what he wants to do... ah, life, ain't it grand?

But, surprisingly, as much as I struggle at times, I have a sense of peace about my future. I love my girls with my whole heart. I have received the wake up call I needed over the past year to do what I need to do for me. I love what I do even when it makes me crazy. I get more time with my girls that I would have in my previous job, as I work 3 12 hour days and have 2 days off per week. We are going to VA this weekend and it will mark just over a year from my last visit and the time my life spiralled out of control. A new start and more simple pleasures! I can't wait :)